confession.

• I'm afraid of the dark, I think that's why I love the stars so much.
• I get angry really easily, it's something I'm working on.
• I sleep too much, and maybe eat too much sugar.
• And if it's possible I dream too much too.
• I have a weakness for sweet talkers.
• I'm constantly making and breaking promises to myself.
• I think about my savior everyday. That should make it easier for me to not make as many mistakes... but it doesn't.
• I'm a good listener though.
• And I can be very brave. I've had to be a few times.
• But I can make people smile.
• And I can take fantastic photographs.

Most importantly...

Even though I've made master mistakes

Even though I've lied and have been dumb enough to believe lies

Even though I've been heartbroken and have broken hearts.

I AM LOVED.

and I AM worthy of all that love.

things i need to survive.

1. a camera

2. a note book and pen

3. books.

4. tea.

5. more books

6. artistic people.

7. my mom and dad.

8. more tea.

9. the sun.

10. more books.

my life in color.

the festival of colors.

is something i look forward to every spring.

it is beautiful.

and everyone is so happy and

surprisingly respectful.

we sing.

dance.

and throw color at each other.

this year was special because we had some first timers.

bobbi and sean.

everyone needs to go at least once.

it makes me incredibly happy.

i love being surrounded by

the people

the music

and the color.

i love

i love
i love.

eff word

It says

the

'f' word.

You'll

love

it.

i texted you this one time...

Today is one of those days when we sit on the floor and cry.

I hate when people have such an impact on your emotions.

Like, they can do one tiny thing

and make you so fucking happy

or so disappointed that you're heart broken for the rest of the day.

I miss you so much right now.

I wish we could be together.

This sounds stupid but i love being sad together with you.

We can always make each other laugh by our stupid irrational thoughts.

I miss our dysfunctional relationship,

or in other words,

our fucking awesome friendship.

Your music has helped me a lot today.

"Night after Night"

"Not Tonight"

and a bunch of others.

miss you so fucking much.

Love, jessa

I believe that

we have a love,

a special love.

A love that inspires others.

It is beautiful like you, and like me.

I love you forever.

Love, Jessa.